Sunday, August 28, 2016

What do you use Facebook for?

(This is late due to the baby's arrival. -Faith)

July 11th, 2016

So it's 3 weeks to my due date.


We've been rather busy (and keeping so) since I last posted.  We went to TX in May, last minute to switch out cars.  Our car was having trouble and John owns several (my brother) so we knew we could see what he had. Also we were able to go to a friend's wedding and get to visit my side of the family after not for several months.

We also then decided to go to D. C. (as I've never been) and see the sights before baby comes and it gets more difficult. That place is one big traffic jam, unless you wake at 3:30a to get in town by dawn like we were able to!  That was a blessings, you could actually find parking! :)

But with Elijah working I am at home alone a lot.  This has been a bit hard for me coming from a big family, and getting used to no noise. But thankfully about 3 to 4 weeks back a large family from church moved in downstairs and the sounds of a family are nice to listen to! :D  Still I have times of depression (my hormones going everywhere) and thus the other day in one such instance I was looking at facebook and seeing what 'everyone' is doing. I was disheartened and sad I wasn't able to join their 'splendors' or parties.  And I had to just pull myself away and realize WAIT!  I am here pregnant (nearly due) and married as I've ALWAYS dreamed of being.  And I'm not 'satisfied' and I'm lonely? And I'm sad????
The Lord was reminding me it is HIM I need to seek and not circumstances, friends, people or things.  Not even my husband (and he'll agree) since we began our courtship we've always reminded each other in emails/letters/words by saying "But remember love Jesus more than me!"
I am VERY grateful for such a man and I prayed for years he would love God more than me, and sometimes yes Satan uses it to try and get me jealous of God... but then it's like WAIT, jealous my man loves God more than me?  THAT'S GREAT!!!!!!!!  I shouldn't be jealous but JUMPING FOR JOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So this last Sunday, Mr. P. (one of the Dads at our church who gives the sermon on occasion) talked of the eternal hope we have. And how we get distracted with life, tractors, jobs, babies etc. instead of reminding each other to look forward to Jesus' return.  As the early church always was reminding each other, for there is NO other hope besides.  And then my Dad in law commented on the sermon with how facebook has been called fakebook.  It made me realize my circumstance before in the week.

Facebook isn't bad, but it's a tool.  A tool we use to encourage and uplift each other, by posting what we are doing or whatever.  And of course we won't post of our bad days, that isn't encouraging.  And as a user and a human my mind instantly thinks your life is thus PERFECT (because of some 'nice' event/doing you did) on facebook.  But in reality facebook isn't your entire life.  And it shouldn't be! :D  Yet nor should I (in my mind) think it's your entire 'perfect' life.  You have your own struggles and I have mine.  We all just need to be reminded to only HOPE in our only hope, Jesus IS coming.  Be that tomorrow or 900 years from today.  He will make all correct when he comes and NOTHING will go unpunished or unseen!  And nothing now goes unseen.  He currently knows my loneliness and your struggles too.  He is CURRENTLY waiting to help as well.  If we just humble ourselves before him and submit our troubles, worries and cares to him.

I am blessed far beyond my imaginations.  And still I am human and I need to be reminded to seek my only hope and everlasting home, heaven.  Encourage one another to seek that blessed hope, for in this crazy, wild, lonely and sinful world it's all we have to look forward to!

Blessings to you all,
His Girl,
Faith Elizabeth Meggs




Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Bad Shepherds

In my reading recently I found a chapter that struck me immediately as I read it.
The resemblence between many of today's pastors, fathers and leaders struck me the most here.
With my family band, when I lived at home, I was privileged to do a ton of traveling (a past time I'm very fond of and miss)!  Along our travels to churches everywhere, from in the pines of East Texas, to the prairies of SE Colorado, to the farmland fields of NC, to the hot windy plains of KS, to the mountain tops of the Rockies, church after church we learned a lot.  Among the different churches we've sang at (over the 12 years I was with the band) we've made several lifelong friends of pastors who follow the Lord completely and aren't ashamed to, but sadly
many pastors fit this category spoken of in Ezekiel 34.
Ezekiel 34 (with some of my own commentary)

And the word of the Lord came to me, saying, "Son of man, prophesy against the shepherds of Israel, prophesy and say to them, 'Thus says the Lord God to the shepherds: Woe to the shepherds of Israel who feed themselves! Should not the shepherds feed the flocks?  You eat the fat and clothe yourselves with the wool; you slaughter the fatlings, but you do not feed the flock.  The weak you have not strengthened, nor have you healed those who were sick, nor bound up the broken, nor brought back what was driven away, nor sought what was lost; but with force and cruelty you have ruled them. So they were scattered because there was no shepherd; and they became food for all the beasts of the field when they were scattered. My sheep wandered through all the mountains, and on every high hill; yes, My flock was scattered over the whole face of the earth, and no once was seeking or searching for them."  Therefore, you shepherds, hear the word of the Lord: "As I live," says the Lord God, "surely because My flock became a prey, and My flock became food for every beast of the field, because there was no shepherd, nor did My shepherds search for My flock, but the shepherds fed themselves and did not feed My flock" therefore, O shepherds, hear the word of the Lord! Thus says the Lord God: "Behold, I am against the shepherds, and I will require My flock at their hand; I will cause them to cease feeding the sheep, and the shepherds shall feed themselves no more; for I will deliver My flock from their mouths, that they may no longer be food for them."  For thus says the Lord God: "Indeed I Myself will search for My sheep and seek them out.  As a shepherd seeks out his flock on the day he is among his scattered sheep, so will I seek out My sheep and deliver them from all the places where they were scattered on a cloudy and dark day.  And I will bring them out from the peoples and gather them from the countries, and will bring them to their own land; I will feed them on the mountains of Israel, in the valleys and in all the inhabited places of the country.  I will feed them in good pasture, and their fold shall be on the high mountains of Israel.  There they shall lie down in a good fold and feed in rich pasture on the mountains of Israel.  I will feed My flock, and I will make them lie down," says the Lord God.  "I will seek what was lost and bring back what was driven away, bind up the broken and strengthen what was sick; but I will destroy the fat and strong, and feed them in judgement.  As for you, O My flock," thus says the Lord God: "Behold, I shall judge between sheep and sheep, between rams and goats.  Is it too little for you to have eaten up the good pasture, that you must tread down with your feet the residue of your
pasture- and to have drunk of the clear waters, that you must foul the residue with your feet?  And as for My flock, they eat what you have trampled with your feet, and they drink what you have fouled with your feet." Therefore thus says the Lord God to them: "Behold, I Myself will judge between the fat and the lean sheep.  Because you have pushed with side and shoulder, butted all the weak ones with your horns, and scattered them abroad, therefore I will save My flock, and they shall no longer be a prey; and I will judge between sheep and sheep.  I will establish one shepherd over them, and he shall feed them- My servant David. He shall feed them and be their shepherd.  And I, the Lord, will be their God, and My servant David a prince among them; I, the Lord, have spoken.  I will make a covenant of peace with them, and cause wild beasts to cease from the land; and they will dwell safely in the wilderness and sleep in the woods.  I will make them and the places all around My hill a blessing; and I will cause showers to come down in their season; there shall be showers of blessing.  Then the trees of the field shall yield their fruit, and the earth shall yield her increase.  They shall be safe in their land; and they shall know that I am the Lord, when I have broken the bands of their yoke and delivered them from the hand of those who enslaved them. And they shall no longer be a prey for the nations, nor shall beasts of the land devour them; but they shall dwell safely, and no one shall make them afraid.  I will raise up for them a garden of renown, and they shall no longer be consumed with hunger in the land, nor bear the shame of the Gentiles anymore. Thus they shall know that I, the Lord their God, am with them, and they, the house of Israel, are My people," says the Lord God. "You are My flock, the flock of My pasture; you are men, and I am your God," says the Lord God.

It is speaking to the Israelites specifically but in reading the first half, I couldn't ignore the resemblance....
"You eat the fat and clothe yourselves with the wool"  They make money off the congregations and feed and cloth themselves and just use the people for their own gain!
"The weak you have not strengthened, nor have you healed those who were sick, nor bound up the broken, nor brought back what was driven away, nor sought what was lost; but with force and cruelty you have ruled them."  This is the MANY young weak people coming to be taught and nurtured but instead are forcefully ruled with unnecessary rules or and the 'broken' parents can't help as they are never bound up or fed either!  And those driven away aren't pursued, and they're usually driven away by 'be perfect' rules... you can't do that!
"So they were scattered because there was no shepherd; and they became food for all the beasts of the field when they were scattered."  So the world gobbles them up and 'teaches' them their ways and they are no longer able to be 'found' or convinced to return, for they are completely eaten up, they became food....
"Is it too little for you to have eaten up the good pasture, that you must tread down with your feet the residue of your pasture- and to have drunk of the clear waters, that you must foul the residue with your feet?  And as for My flock, they eat what you have trampled with your feet, and they drink what you have fouled with your feet."  And here we see the worst cruelty of these 'shepherds' and fat sheep; they polute the food and drink for the church, and thus give them wrong and false doctrine and filthy instead of living water!  Oh how Christ must groan and weep for our 'churches' of today!

And fathers too!  I was very blessed to have a good shepherd for a father, but the examples of this passage apply there too.
(And even if I did have a sinful bad shepherd father, it would still be up to me how to live my life and be, I couldn't blame him for my own choices in life. My mother is a perfect example of living a Godly life without a good shepherd father.)

The Lord is very clear here.  And I was grateful that my church has good shepherds as the leaders.  Who are also good shepherd fathers.  They all as it says in Hebrews 13:17, "Obey those  who rule over you, and be submissiver, for they watch out for your sould, as those who must give account.  Let them do so with joy and not with grief, for that would be unprofitable for you." And submit as to those who must give an account, for they do!  They do have to give an account to the Heavenly shepherd Lord Jesus Christ!!!

Seek ye first the kingdom of heaven! And you're doing just fine.  The Lord wants our all, and he tells us to follow and be submissive to leaders for a reason.  Even to ungodly leaders.  To show them how Christ followers are different!  (See 1 Peter 2:18-23 btw servants means 'employee').

Anyway I'll let you go!  Thank you all for reading and for your continued prayers as we still pursue north Africa!
-Faith Elizabeth Meggs

Thursday, March 31, 2016

Meggs Missions

We are in dire need of your prayers these days! :D

First let's update you all, we are expecting a little one who is due to arrive July 30th!  And along with this we are still choosing the midwife.  

Also we have several applications with several mission organizations and are in the process of talking to them all in effort of finding the best fit, where the Lord Jesus needs us.   We hope to go to northern Africa, as some of you know.  But aren't sure with whom (organization), where, when, how, and for how long we would go for the initial visit.  We do hope to live there long-term someday. 

So, we are deciding many things.  And prayerfully considering many different options, routes and paths.  We would really appreciate your prayers at this time!

Specifically please pray:  
  • That God would direct us to the right organization
  • That He would direct us to the right midwife
  • That He would give us wisdom concerning the many small decisions that influence the first two

May our Lord guide and direct you all as well!  Thank you!
Please comment (or email) if you would like to commit to being a part of our prayer team.
His servants,
Elijah and Faith Meggs

My Biggest Lesson

Father,                                                        
 3-26th and 28th-16

I have waited years for this, I've had chance after chance, trial after trial  that I failed and learned from, and here you've finally given me the next step in life, the 'wedding bells', the lover of lovers.  And atop that this amazing baby growing within me!!!

I had run for soo long on my own, I had held on to EVERY tiny detail and tried to make it turn out the way I wanted.  I let you have 'most' of my life but not all.... And especially my hardest and toughest problem young men... I'd blindly keep those issues or myself and think I could fix them better.  I blindly held onto them in fear that you might do something that would scar or harm me.

But my life didn't begin until I LET go to you everything and every detail, completely- it all, nothing held back.  I HAD to trust you COMPLETELY.  And you wanted to know if I did first before you gave me a new lesson, a new lot in life.  And I had to trust you, to let life work out as you planned. I HAD to let go or else I'd still continue to try and run my life the remainder of it (and this is a battle I still fight).  You had to become my ALL in ALL or else life would just be a constant battle against you... a hard (VERY HARD) opponent.
And if I couldn't learn to TRUST you, who would I EVER trust?  ...No one  (but I couldn't see that).
If I couldn't LOVE you completely, who could I EVER truly love? ...No one.
If I couldn't submit or give you my heart, who would EVER see my heart, the REAL Faith? ...No one.
LEAST of all a human man!  For here you were the CREATOR of my every ounce and I was warring with you over what would be best for me.  You who knew my heart in and out and all its hopes, dreams and desires.  You who crafted my tiny odd feet, my 'too short' fingers, my odd this and odd that... who crafted me to look JUST the way I did and I was going to challenge your design and tell you that this pot didn't want to look so different....  But as I slowly let my walls of fear down and as I offered you this or that part of my life and NO harm or scars occurred, no pain erupted I slowly let my trust in you grow... But why I WAITED I don't know??? WHY I didn't trust you completely from the truth I'd read and known of you I don't know?  But when these 'sacred' areas of my heart were finally surrendered and given over to you I learned you DID care for my heart, my pains, and my comforts and my tiny little silly dreams far much more than I even did myself!
You and I slowly became one... I let you into my hidden closet, where I hid my young men issues, I let you into that closet that I'd held you out of for years... you could freely roam my 'entire' soul but just not that part... until I eventually realized I was making it worse and worse EVERY TIME I tried to fix it, I was failing over and over and it was getting tiresome...  And surely you, who had created it, wouldn't HARM it? So MAYBE I could trust you????  But would you harm it????  What risk.... too much for me to take too quickly!  Yet today my soul moans, for the foolishness of my heart NOT trusting you completely...  So I began, slowly at first and then one day after another miserable failure on my part (and after I'd tried and tested you in MANY 'safe' areas of my soul) I finally gave you the right to go in my closet. You had the permission to clean, fix or repair what needing doing...  I finally restrained myself (still somewhat scared of the outcome) and told myself to leave you to the closet and I WOULDN'T come check on you... that was too painful and hard.  It was better for me to turn away until you were 'done'....  I didn't want to know what you did... Yet I REALLY, REALLY DID!!!!!
That was the hardest thing I've done.  "But it NEEDS doing" I told myself, "I HAVE to trust HIM with everything!" And my only real comfort was "surely if he created me he won't HARM me????"
And as you told me just to cling to you and that truth.....  I did.  And you were so sweet and so kind, you quickly showered me with the biggest blessing in that area of my life, my husband!!!!!    I didn't even realize it but as I was busy 'trusting you' the very man you had me marry came into my life and you told me "Just wait for a fellow like this".....  My reply was something like, "Okay, okay... but we're not discussing that issue... just 'fix' it... I can't handle it!"   And yet I was drawn to this man... My soul seemed to rise every time he entered the room, or moan when he left......

Lord, you worked on my 'closet' and I just prayed and prayed feeling like an utter fool for liking a fellow THAT much that I'd JUST MET...
Then you worked it out and before I knew it I was writing this man emails.  He was writing me ones just as long...  What was this new thing?  I'd emailed fellows before... but not so easily... not so carelessly...   I wasn't 'in charge' and I wasn't 'controlling it'... it WAS VERY SCARY yet VERY fun at the same time, for I wasn't MAKING it happen, or forcing it like before....  This wasn't my plan....... and it was beautiful.... and it only kept getting more and more lovely!  Sweeter and sweeter, as I continued in prayer after prayer.... "IS THIS OKAY GOD??????? JESUS, is this or that allowed???  Do YOU want me to be here writing this man?????"  And you seemed to reply, "It's okay, don't worry about it, just live your life. If you get an email, like you do when you get one from anyone, do what you always do, reply it." And it just continued and then before I knew it the man came walking up to my door again... in the morning hours to surprise me... and that weekend we were engaged........

Lord Jesus!  Trusting you had been the most difficult thing to do at first...  The toughest task.  My whole body and soul warred against doing it!  I could BARELY trust myself.... how was I EVER going to trust anything/anyone else???  But after test after test, I gave you my soul... all of it completely.    And you know that as I went through those little tests I didn't have it in my mind 'I'm testing God's trustworthiness'... nor did I even think 'I'm going to learn to trust God.'   I had just gotten so good at trusting no one completely, it was all I knew. And I did it even with you my God!  But your Holy Spirit was busy, busy at work, dissembling my stone walls around my closet... my heart.  You knew what was in there and you knew exactly how it worked, but you needed me to trust you.   And sure enough this man, whom I was engaged to, was the VERY living man I'd ALWAYS dreamed of, the very face, the very form, the very personality.... And even tiny details that I had thought too silly, yet had dreamed concerning my man, were manifest completely in this man....  His hairstyle, his passions, his hobbies, his heart's desires.... They were not just a perfect match to what I'd dreamed, but FAR MORE and Beyond!  He was what I'd 'hoped for' in fleeting moments then told myself "You're a weirdo thinking you could get that in a 21st century man!"... But Jesus, you recorded my every thought, my every desire, my every preference and silly dream and made Elijah!!!!!  And this atop your DYING FOR ME???  Atop your coming to bleed to death and face hell and your father's wrath for me!!!!!!!!!!!  Oh Jesus you are the LOVER of LOVERS.... the All in all we can't live without!  The giver we can't THANK enough!!!

And in this season, we recall especially your resurrection.... Oh EVERYDAY should BE "EASTER", we SHOULD NEVER forget this.... for all life, all love, all creation, would be worthless without your RISING!  Without your love!!!!!

And all I can say is Thank you, thank you for breathing breath into mankind, for breathing your spirit into believers, for leaving us your spirit as the best friend we need to speak to and confer with!  Thank you for the time and years you put into working with and for your children.... You never gave up on me through the MANY, MANY times I'd say "okay I'll give you the men in my life" yet then I'd take them RIGHT BACK and TRY doing it on my own again!!!!!!!  OVER and OVER.....  Thank you for your depthless patience!  For your forbearance....  When I deserve hell for eternity, you just waited on ME to give up, and start to trust you!!!!!  Your grace and MERCY are matchless and your love is divinely DEPTHLESS!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU!!!!!!!

Your child,
Faith Elizabeth Meggs

Saturday, October 17, 2015

A Married Woman

"The Lord liveth, and blessed be the rock and let the God of my salvation be exalted" Psalms 18:46

(Credit goes to my sister in law, Olivia for the couple photos of us, do check out her website:  www.oliviamariephotography.squarespace.com)



The Lord has written, worked on, crafted, planned and designed the BEST thing.... Our love story.

A year ago I was doubtful marriage would be anytime 'soon'... And even March 1st if you had told me 'you'll get married 6 months' I'd have laughed.  I really felt it would be far off (as I think I mentioned in my last blogpost).

The Lord has really opened up my next stage in life 'quickly' compared to this current world's ideas. But along with everything else I LOVE old fashioned and (who would've thought -God's the BEST husband picker) so does my man, thus an 'old fashioned' FAST style courtship. ;)

Though we planned to marry in Novemeber in Texas it was when my family and I came up to Virginia September 15th (to visit the Meggs family for a week) that Elijah and I after much talk and consideration and prayers and counsel from our parents decided to get married early.  We decided to Saturday evening (the 19th) and then on Sunday afternoon after church with his friends and family and my family on such a nice fall day at 3pm my Love and I became man and wife, Mr. and Mrs. Elijah J. Meggs.  Then as we came out of church we were greeted by my favorite weather, misting rain!  And the beautiful Blueridge mountains made the perfect photography background!!!!  A TRUE dream come true of mine (mountain wedding photos)! :D


Let me let you read that again.  Yes, I'm married!  :)    We've only 'just' met on March 5th but it seems like we've known each other for decades!  We had only spent a total of 22 days together in life when we decided to marry.  But we'd shared souls as best (and as often) as possible over the computer since March 22nd. :)

We were both a bit surprised to marry soon ourselves but we were continually reassured to go ahead and do it.  I have since (in all these 16 days of marriage) found multiple reasons why the Lord had us marry 'this' soon.  It was actually only 6 weeks ahead of schedule.

We still will have the wedding we've been planning in Texas. It will be for my friends and family there.  Here I was glad his many like minded friends could all attend, in Texas they wouldn't have gotten to come.  I had brought an older wedding dress for engagement photos, but it served me well as my wedding gown and a shawl from one of the women of church served as my veil.  Unique- just how I like things! :D  I am very grateful for the VERY Jesus centered ceremony both pastors (friends of the Meggs) did.  And I was VERY blessed to have the entire church family jump in and make my wedding day so special, beautiful, calm, sweet, priceless and memorable!!!  And they only found out about 2 hours prior to the wedding! Talk about friends!!!!!!!!!!!! (And they all had only met me the day before!) :D

Originally we had an engagement party planned to follow the morning church service but instead we had a wedding, oh it was FUN!!!!  And the BEST day of my life after the day I met Jesus! :D

Elijah and I will still honeymoon as planned in November after the Texas wedding.  We don't regret any of it and would do it over again if need be. :)  Our God is bigger than we think and though when we decided to marry we were yet without a home or idea of where exactly to move we married anyway (knowing the Lord wished us to).  And after our first night in a hotel we went to the Meggs (were my family still was staying) and came in to Mrs. Meggs who told us of a place offered us by a fellow believer not far.  So we went and looked over a small one room apartment on private property and were told by the owner that if we cleaned it up we could have it for a VERY reasonable price every month, but the first two months we'd only have to pay utilities!  Both our families were more than eager and willing to clean it up with/for us. And we instantly knew it was our's by the way it was ready and all 'empty' and waiting for us!  On the way to 'see' it I even remember thinking, "This would be our drive home every time, how lovely" and it is!!!!  I live on top of a mountain, and only 15 minutes from his work and 15 minutes from his family's.  I am finding my way around fast and we actually own our own car now too!  Another fantastic God gift!  He provided the perfect type of vehicle, the same price we were looking at, the 'special' moon/sun roof feature Elijah and I both REALLY enjoy and the right timing!  We have our new phones, and phone plan (my other phone actually broke on the way up here and his old one was messing up).

I have my birth certificate in now too (from Mama in Texas) and now will work on legally changing my name. I already am Mrs. Meggs and the marriage license is all done, but now for my I.D.. :)

Together we are working on language now, French and Arabic for the mission work we plan on doing.  Sometime between February and May on next year we plan to go to north Africa.

We're also enjoying VERY simple living yet thanks to the Lord's prompting alone I brought some of my household things to give Elijah and I also brought a good extra amount of clothing.  We are doing very well in our little home and are quite fond of this married life stuff! :D
We get to share and do everything together! We plan to do some more hiking and bike trails before its too cold and I can't wait to spend the rest of my days with Elijah!  He is SOOOO much sweeter than I really knew and he is WAY wiser too!  The Lord has PERFECTLY fashioned us for one another, I see new things here and there every now and then and pretty much something new everyday that reminds me of how precise the Lord is!  We so often DO forget how he DOES keep the world from spinning out of control and keeps the oceans in sink with the moon and the sun at its correct distance from burning us all on earth.   He even is mindful of man!  Yet not only that, he has remembered my every desire in a man and put it in Elijah!  It is CRAZY realizing the KINDNESS of my Father in heaven!  He's SOOOOOOOOOOOO sweet and we FORGET HIM?????????
I am so guilty of this!  And as we prepare to serve the Lord at whatever cost satan is attacking already, so I ask that you please keep us in your prayers!

I still have email but I no longer have a facebook for me. Elijah and I share one. :)

Blessed beyond my mind's comprehension!
~Faith Elizabeth Meggs~

Our 'Meggs' coat of arms, my blue veil and bouquet here at home.




Thursday, October 15, 2015

Stay Tuned!

Another post coming soon, so "STAY TUNED"... ;)


Monday, September 7, 2015

Yearnings... A Hug from a Man

I have been really busy wedding planning!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

It is sooner than many of you might think, coming up in November!

We are ready and needn't waste any time.  We have waited years already! :)

Anyway here is some old poetry I wrote back in 2014.

Tis what was on my heart.... Its not entirely poetry, but is thoughts.

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Yearnings by Faith Grubb
I'll wait till the end of time, if I need to wait, for a hug from a man.
I'll wait till I see my savior, if I need to wait, to hold a man's hand.  And tho' I yearn to and tho' I long to see the feeling of what it is to be a wife I will wait, if I need to wait and return as the bride of Christ.
But he's given these dreams to me, and I know I'm given these yearnings. I know he is faithful and he will not let my needs return void.  
And I'll wait till the end of time, before I need to receive a hug from a man.  And I'll wait til I see my savior if I need to wait till I hold a man's hand.  And I'll wait to hold a man close, till it must be my savior alone, it must be what he wills it to be. 


"...I'll wait till the end of time, if I need to wait, for a hug from a man...."
I yearn for a man.  And many men come into mind, but its not my choice of who I marry.  And that's the hard part is waiting on you, Lord, and yet knowing that your plans and your choice is best, he'll be the perfect father to my kids the perfect spouse for me, he'll probably draw me out of my shell -some of the shells I have, or he'll hold me in the shell, in my other areas. Uh you do that perfectly, you've done it with Christy and Stephen, Daddy and Mama and Anna and Daniel (friends of mine).  And you'll have the perfect family for me. Um they will be- he will have the best sisters I need sisters in law, parents in law, I just need to relax and trust!  And get busy doing what I need to do.............. And you've given us those dreams.......  And its just amazing. 
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Reading this again quickens my heart, knowing the providence of our Heavenly Father!  He has been my long time Lover (and continues to be) before Elijah, now I am learning to be his lover WITH a man here on earth!  It is a wonder..... It is a vast miracle, far beyond my comprehension!  And in every tiny little thing I have dreamed of about my 'future husband' My Dear Jesus has answered and given me these tiny dreams and fulfilled them not JUST to completion but ABOVE AND BEYOND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Wait upon the Lord and again I say WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! His BEST is worth it!  And is BEAUTIFULLY fulfilling!!!!!!!
His child and Lover Forever I remain!
-FaithEllie

Saturday, August 15, 2015

~Elijah James Meggs~

"Trust in the Lord, and do good; so shalt thou dwell in the land,  
and verily thou shalt be fed.    Delight thyself also in the Lord:  
and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.   Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass."
Psalms 37:3-5


August 8th, 2015 We took a walk with Daddy and Mama.
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I am going to be married....   But not just that...........    I'm going to marry Elijah James Meggs......

Yes to you he's no one.   He's a name... And may always be just that to you..........   But to me, in my world, he's everything, right after the Creator Jesus!

He's strong, handsome, brave, tall, blue-eyed, a knock-out, cowboyish, history-loving, eye-candy.... and most of all a man after God's heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He's a man I love with all my heart, mind, and strength and one I won't EVER give up.      He's one I've waited 23 years for and would willing to wait another 20, if need be but it would be OHHHH SOOOO LOOOONNNNGGGGGG yet short - for the love I have for him would make it seem days! 

  My Beloved isn't just a man.   Another face....   He's the one I've had to pass up other men for.   He's the one I've had to hold my soul for.   He's the one I've prayed for and asked God to pick.....   Because the men I've picked weren't quite 'right'.......

To wait IS HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   You virgins (like me) KNOW THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You've heard it EVERYWHERE 'its worth the wait'..... I say again it IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Let me begin the story before you all skip to it! ;)

So you've heard of these 'Shindigs' aye?    If not, they're gatherings of Christian homeschoolers across America,  hosted by No Greater Joy.   As we all seem to live in remote areas where good 'mates' around our age (with similar beliefs) are RARE or not there they created these for us to 'mingle' and get to know each other! ;)    These are fun.   But they were NOT only for 'young adults' either, so it was fun to see many families from across the nation.   At the first one (which was in 2012) I learned a huge lesson, simply MEET fellas - that's all - JUST meet them as people.... they are the other half of the race and we HAVE to get along to exist on earth my dears! :D   (As a dreamy-Go-to girl I had to set aside the 'flutters' and just learn that every male is NOT someone to get fluttery over)! :)   
You see my sisters and I grew up thinking it was a sin to even talk to a guy (BUT our parents NEVER taught us this, it was my weird brain and I think some weird books the girls read that taught it to us).....  

So that's where I came from!   Then the Lord slowly taught me how to get along with and just MEET people in general, old men, old women, little girls, boys, men my age, 40 year olds, ladies my age, 56 etc............   :)   People are LOTS of fun and I just was soo excited getting to know folks in general and you really learn about the way the Lord made individuality!!!   Its FUN to see his different designs either reoccur in odd habits people have, or reoccur in two TOTALLY different people, but yet they both have the EXACT 'cookie cutter' smile, or facial feature.... God's REALLY funny sometimes! :D  

I was in a relationship with someone early this year and it sadly ended pretty fast........   I was hurt, but I was planning our family's 4 -day March Shoot Out (mini Shindig) and HAD to go on and knew BEYOND the shadow of a doubt that it was the Lord's will for that to end.....   It was REALLY tough... As the Lord (in the conclusion of that) seemed to bluntly ask me, "Do you want marriage that bad, or me?"   I had to give up that man and marriage and so follow and choose the Lord over him.      Talk about HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   
Then a week went by and folks were arriving for our Shindig......   It was  March 5th  and a tiny car from Virginia pulled up and 3 VERY handsome fellas (ALL tall and good looking AND with cowboy hats) hopped out.... I was thinking 'how could they fit in that tiny car?'   They were so tall.... especially one...................   Elijah Meggs.......... (That is something I do remember noticing was his height over the other two...)   :) :) :) :) :)
(Elijah, his brother Josh and his friend Adam came).

My first impression was 'COOL, more good lookers, just to get to know.' ;)    After that break-up I wasn't too keen on quickly starting to share my life with a new fella....... again...........      But even minutes after they arrived (as Elijah and Adam went around the house to find a tent site) I watched 'em and wanted OH SO BAD to run outside and 'help' them ;) ;) ;) ;) ;) ;) ;) ;) ;) ;) ;) ;)

Later they all came in to jam and play music, he sang with his brother Josh, and after they sang some I told him he had a good voice.... his look was like 'Yeah right! You flatterer!'.........   I was like 'oops'.......... (Also I don't compliment everyone's voice...... ;) )

Then the dancing and all happened and I began to like him - a lot.   I even thought of the other fella   (I had just broke up with) while we all got ready to dance one night and was sad he wasn't there, but again the Lord reassured me he had things the way they were for a reason. So I stood back and I liked watching Elijah dance, and tried to stand near him to be asked by him......................... (he seemed to ignore me)....    It worked one particular time and that was SO funny!!!!   He and I had stood side by side watching the one dance, then he turned abruptly and said "You want to dance?" and as he did another guy (Luke) came up to ask me at the same time! Elijah nudged Luke and said "I was here first" while I said yes to Elijah.   But after nudging Luke Elijah told him, "But if she wants to dance with you..."   Luke laughed and said "I wouldn't let her go after she accepted!"   Elijah was like "Oh she did?" and took my hand!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D
That was a fun memory!      So I was flirting with him, trying to talk to HIM when I could... but just bugged his brother, Josh, about him instead. ;)   (Sorry Josh... you were easy to get info from)!!!!!!!!!!!!

And then as time went on, he was teasing me as we played games...   We played Two-Touch football one day and as we played on opposite teams I noticed he began to 'cheat' and move the starting line for his team's advantage!   I was like "Huh he's getting away with cheating and wants his way and thinks I DON'T know the rules... but I DO!"   I also was just having fun and NOT really (but slightly) watching him!   :)   I LOVE football and hadn't played in about 3 or 4 years.... So that was REALLY fun!!!!!!!!!!!   :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
We talked (a tiny bit) about beliefs and the lost and the mission field, and he and Josh had their dreams and lives 'mapped out' (but they were 'open' to the LORD mapping out things)!!!!!!! They knew where they wanted to go... I was told that Elijah wanted to go to Central Asia(near Russia) to minister.....      And that was neat I thought... Maybe my German could be used there.....    Josh was going to college to be a nurse to use that in missions, Elijah was studying English to be an English teacher, and Adam was planning a trip to Ukraine!    These 3 guys from Virginia where just REALLY on fire for Jesus and there was NO mistaking that - it was just MIND BLOWING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D   And God seemed to say "See Faith, wait for a fella like one of these."    I was like "Okay... I can wait and its gonna be a WHILE..." (little did I know!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Then we played another game and I REALLY 'haunted' him in that one.... He was such a good player and I got 'in jail' several times just to talk to him 'about the game'! ;)

So when they left I thought to myself "You know you may NEVER see this fella again and you'd better NOT set your heart on a daydream again!"      (I have burned my tongue on ice before.... dreaming up such a simple meeting into something more that was NEVER there!...)    Anyway so they left and as they did Elijah was forgetting things.   I felt like an UTTER FOOL as I gathered HIS things (knowing they weren't Josh's or Adam's) and bringing them to him.... I was SURE everyone KNEW I was REALLY fond of him!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And then they had to leave. :(

The days afterwards he wouldn't leave my mind.... so I prayed....... LOTS....... and all we had was their mailing address, yet I WASN'T gonna write him a LETTER!!!!!!!!!!   BUT they had left some things behind.... and I knew they needed them ;)   I sought counsel from Mama and several other women telling them I WAS fond of the guy but didn't know him much and wanted to 'keep in touch'.    I was encouraged to write him.   I wrote him about the things they left behind on  March 15th.   It was a busy week ahead and I didn't hear anything back............ I was sure I had scared him off completely! :( :( :(   I just continued to pray non-stop, that ONLY the LORD's will be done and that he'd take away this LONGING and YEARNING to get to know Elijah Meggs....... as it was rather distracting! ;) ;) ;)      In that week I DID research Elijah Meggs on google... I found a VERY interesting find.......   His name showed up on a homeschooled family's blog, and a trip to Africa was mentioned...... and I saw photos of Elijah in an African/Arabian robe (called a Captani)!!!!!!   My heart has been set on Arabia and the Sahara dessert (for YEARS) and I was like "WOW!!!! There's my 'Lawerance of Arabia'!!!!!"   When Josh was talking of missions he mentioned how HE wanted to go to Africa, but had said Elijah wanted to go to Central Asia (now looking back I think he only said this for precaution - I was a near stranger!).    I was like WHAT??????????????????   But just prayed.   And thought maybe he went there and didn't like it, so he chose Central Asia?

So that week was long and hard... then I found him on facebook on the  21st of March. Still no word, then I decided I'd write him a note on there, a 'I like your encouraging posts' thing....   NOTHING much ;)    As I clicked on his name it showed me a message FROM HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    (His message was from  MARCH 14th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

He had asked about his things and some photos.   So there it began....... we wrote............ like NON-Stop!!!!!!!!!!! :)   We were corresponding rather 'heavily' - daily at least, sometimes more. :)
As he was working full time and studying too (and topics were getting deeper) he wrote Daddy and asked if he was allowed to keep writing me and he 'slowed' it down to once a week and made it clear we were ONLY friends........... that was hard, but I was willing to even slow to once a month, JUST to continue writing HIM!!!!!!!!!!! 
In June, as another 'gathering' came up, I was VERY sad he couldn't make it (the Spring Mingle - this one was for young adults) and there I actually met another fella, a lot like Elijah.   And though I was writing Elijah he had asked NOTHING and made it clear we were only friends.... I was very unsure if he was only writing to 'be nice' or to simply be a 'sibling in Christ' pen-pal..... So I remained 'open' to other men, as I wasn't 'claimed'. :)

So when we came home from that I was sorta surprised to find that other guy wanting to write me....    I didn't wish to betray or be rude to either man, so I just simply told both of them the facts.   “Currently I am writing a guy/you  purely as a friend, and now I shall write both of you, simply as friends.”
That was VERY HARD to write.   And yet I knew it needed writing and I knew I was attracted and liked both, but was 'more involved' with Elijah and did not wish to 'begin' afresh with another... but knew I could if I needed to.   Whatever the Lord required of me.    When I wrote that I did secretly wish it'd make Elijah jealous.......... but what would he care?   I was some crazy 'nag' from Texas!!!!!!!! :)   Unlike usual I didn't hear anything from Elijah for about 2 to 3 days.   He was silent.... I was like 'okay... you scared him off........' :(   The other fellow was VERY understanding...... (I hated to be so rude to him, but I had to be upfront... and not sneaky)....

Then Mama stopped me in the kitchen and said "Did you get an email?"   I said "From who?"   She had a twinkle in her eyes and she said "You'll see...."   :)

So of course I had to check my email........... and WOW!!!!!!!!! An email from Elijah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D   I opened it and unlike others he was apologizing.... I was like "Oh no!   Its a 'goodbye' email'...." :(    But as I read on I was ready to SCREAM for JOY!   He said "I am sorry if I surprise you here, but I am VERY JEALOUS and don't like the idea of SHARING you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
After SOOOOOO long of writing I was like YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   That was  June 23rd  at about  4pm......... ;)   
So that's when we officially began courting. 

Then about a month later in emailing, Elijah was saying how couldn't wait to hold me.... ;)   In my mind I was thinking "WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!   I can't wait either.... but I'm only courting you and you never 'claimed' me?????"........ ;) ;) ;)  
So............ :)   I just simply replied to him, "When is all this gonna happen?"

He said “as soon as possible..... ;)”   Then he asked my Daddy.......... :) :) :) :) :) :)   (He'd been talking to Daddy off and on since April). :)

Then Daddy asked me when I wanted Elijah to come down, as it was a question he should ask in person!!!!!!!!!!!!!   And so we picked some dates.   Then Daddy and Mama gave Elijah the dates, and they got word back from him that he'd come down, but not to tell me when........ So.... that was REALLY exciting!!!!!!!!!!!   Having to be on pins and needles... he could show up at ANY time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!     

Then  on Friday morning (August 7th) as I went to check my phone to see if he emailed..... at my desk..... I saw out my window he and Adam come around the house..... I was gasping... "Its.... its.... them......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"   He came in and we side-hugged for the first time EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    That was stiff and our stomachs were instantly invaded by swarms of butterflies!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D   
So right off the bat Mama had us make the menu and then go shopping!!!!!!!!!!!!!   Abigail 'attended' us and then at the Dollar store my cousin, whom I hardly see, checked us out and that was a blessing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   :) :) :) :) :)    The Lord was just 'showing us off'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D    And the Neals (our friend's) dance was that night!   And I was sooo excited and nervous for I would be going with my BEAU, for the first time.... and this had all been 'under wraps'.... for we weren't certain and hey.... for the fun of it too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   

And now for photos.... :)   He's a VERY handsome fella and I am one blessed lady.....   The Lord has chosen this dude.    I was NOT ready for another man to come into my life and was resisting Elijah (at first) a bit.... But the Lord reassured me I must let things be and let the Lord write my love story........ As a writer that can be really hard!   But it is best left to the Lord.    He doesn't forget anything... every little dream I felt was too 'wild' or 'minor' to ask God for... he gave it to me in my Elijah James Meggs......... Little things I'd dream of at age 6.... 

Its only the Lord's design that is most BEAUTIFUL!   And I am overwhelmed and SOO ungrateful for all the blessings he's given me with, in and through Elijah.   

But like the salvation of the Lord, we were and never ARE gonna be deserving so we can only stand back in awe at the gifts the Father bestows on us!   We're his children and he delights in our delights, thus he fulfills our tiny desires and dreams (if our heart is in tune with his, our desires and dreams are his desires and dreams for us, re-read the top verses)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)  

His visit Aug. 7th through 11th 2015. 


I took him on a drive and for on a walk!



My family had us do the meals and dishes together. 


Sunday August 9th, before any proposal, we went  
ring shopping (and buying ;) .... see it on my hand???)


I took him to meet my Memaw after ring shopping!

   Then after we came home, I was showing my siblings and his friend the ring photos (the ring had to be sent off to get re-sized) and I got a tap on the shoulder and turned about to see him with yellow roses..... He dropped to one knee and told me "I know I don't have much money, so would you take a poor man's roses? Will you be my wife?"   Of course I said YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    (I sing Patsy Cline's old song "A Poor Man's Roses"....) 

  
After he asked!!!!!


After we got the roses in a vase ;)

Our last hug before he left..... a VERY bitter sweet!!!!!!!!!
WOW!!!!!!!!!!! I'm engaged Y'ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I didn't really conclude it, but... Elijah and I plan to move to Africa as missionaries next year.   Do keep us in your prayers and we thank you soo much for all your encouragement!   It's tough to wait for God's best sometimes, but it is WORTH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And MORE fulfilling than anything else EVER!!!!!!!!!!   Knowing you're where God wants you is the BEST FEELING EVER (even better than my man's hug, stay FOCUSED on   JESUS!)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To God be the GLORY, GREAT things he hath done! :) :) :) :) :) :)

His Holy Child,
Faith Elizabeth Grubb

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

A Wee Little Girl Dream


Once upon a time there was a wee little girl,
She dreamed and thought and dreamed. 

On the swings or making mud pies, 
She dreamed, pondered some then would dream.

Riding bikes or playing with things,
She dreamed, and wondered and then dreamed again!
Even washing the table or sweeping the floor,
Boy! She dreamed and thought then she'd dream again!

When afraid to cry or talk,
this wee little girl kept wondering and dreaming away.

Though her dreams weren't too out of the ordinary,
They grew and grew
As she dreamed and dreamed again.

Playing "house", or fort with her friends
She always dreamed and then dreamed again.

Praying for the food, watching adults talk or yell,
She thought and dreamed.

Combing her Mama's hair, or cuddling her dolls
She kept dreaming and thinking on and on.

As time went by her dreams didn't die,
Lost a bit they wandered, but she'd find 'em again
And dream and dream.

She started to feel silly for such dreams,
But on and on she dreamed these dreams.

From another world they were her world
And though hard to believe them she'd dream 'em anyway.

Why they wouldn't let go 
or be buried she wanted to know...

Now all grown, she still dreams her dreams,
For tiny or huge, medium or minor, important or not
She has seen many come true.

And she knows they've been counted 
and remembered by her maker and Lord.

For he little by little unwraps before her
Each special dream to the last detail of color and size!!!

And she dreams and dreams a Bigger dream now, 
To go meet and glorify her Lord EVER MORE!
And so the wee little girl, once upon a time, dreamedAnd that little girl is me.

My sisters and I playing house.  Clockwise L to R: Melody,
Christina 'on the phone' and the hog is moi! 



Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Tennessee

So Mama, Joshua, Abigail and I just got home!  For a long time we've loved the herbs sold by Shoshanna Eastling, of Bulk Herb Store!  And now Melody got the opportunity to intern there!!! :D
So we just got home from dropping her off.  While up there we got to visit our friends, the Taylor family!  That was a blast and such a blessed time!  It was very fun to get to hang out and help them around their farm! :)

Here are some photos:
This is Thomas and Naomi Taylor!  We hiked up to this point
(we Abi Taylor too) before it was sunset.
Sarah and Abi Taylor and I picked this row of
green beans down at the neighboring Amish farm.


At the Taylors, anywhere.  I'm barefoot - an addiction, a life.


Melody at her new work! :D 

The road from Melody's house. 

The Taylor's porch swing was awesome every sunrise!
And their little ones and I hung out there a lot.

Joshi and their boys jumping! :)

Naomi and I before we left.  She's such a beauty!

You all enjoy your summer! And I am sorry this blogging has been sporadic.  I am getting busy!
Loving life is a GREAT pastime, so I implore you go out live, love, laugh and exit for Jesus, kick yourself for foolishness and go on love your life!!! :D

"The preparations of the heart in man, and the answer of the tongue, is from the Lord. All the ways of man are clean in his own eyes; but the Lord weigheth the spirits. Commit thy works unto the Lord, and thy thoughts shall be established." Proverbs 16:1-3 and verse 9, "A man's heart deviseth his way: but the Lord directeth his steps." 

Direct my steps!

Forever His Holy Child,
Faith Elizabeth