Thursday, February 27, 2014

Writing a story...

Okay so I'm an author... I write stories.  Mostly I try to make them entertaining, adventurous, fun and wonderful... ;)  So often, as a writer, I want my life to be so as well.  But you know some of the BEST memories are made out of those really slow days when one feels as if time were dragging on. 

That's how God is.  He turns hum-drum life into the sweetest cherished events.  Why I recall when my Popo would come over and he'd jam on his guitar with us kids.  Dad and Mom would make us play music with him, at the time I didn't care and was upset half the time (the one photo I have handy sadly shows my lack of interest).  But today I recall those days as sweet and I regret I didn't ask him of his WW2 experiences. 

The time is flying by, I don't really appreciate today and we sheep are dumb, the grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side of the fence.  :/   But when we SLOW down enough (in this FAST 'give it to me now' world/society) to hear God and rest in HIM the beauty of the irritating but childish kids comes to view, their foolishness is funny to us now, we were once just as foolish- if not WORST!  At church yesterday night, where we sang here in Denver, CO.  Someone said its good to pray as much as you can but its not a good idea to close your eyes while you drive.  To me I PRAY while I drive, God won't zap me down for not closing my eyes.  That's only respect and yet its not always needed.  I like to talk to God whenever and anytime, I am able to be his friend more so, and it helps me bring everything to him, as I should!  It may not work for all.  But its a special way for me to bond with our Lord!

This is me... (rambling from my subject).  I'm sitting here playing hearts with Melody, John and Abigail.  While Daddy plays the blues with some friends here at Suzie Solomon's store.  Its a fun time to get away from the house and travel.  We even did some hiking today and that was fun!

Life isn't always this exciting, some days we just wish the day would end but I have found that if I start the day focused on Christ (be that starting the day with a 2 or 3 lined prayer, reading the bible,listening to it on audio or journaling to him) I am soo much better prepared for the world and the battles satan will war for my mind, my attitude, my day etc.  But then again like I heard once its not our day to decide whether its good or bad really ;)  If its a 'bad day' then we must best glorify God in it and NOT complain about it! :D


I really love this song.  My sister Christy shared this with me and I've fallen in love with Jesus all over again in listening to it.  And I've never even heard of Francesca Battistelli.  But now I shall investigate her other music.  I already like her "For a Hundred Years" song.  Here's the one Christy sent me,


Thank God for my family and the lovely life I have now! Its roller coaster I'll miss one day!  And what a blessed one I am!

Bless you all and bless the Lord,
Faith E. Grubb


Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Released!

With the days warming up, after a long cold time, (its about 75 today and warm) I am excited about life!   As well as the many blessings reminding me who we still belong to, who NEEDS us to praise him and needs our worship!

My first (and only... for now anyway) novel is complete and ready for purchase!  Its been a long 14, 15 months and its amazing its done this quick!  My first book (which never got published) took me years and I was never satisfied...   But this shows me the difference.  I'd never thought to consult the Lord about what I wrote before, until I was maybe a chapter into writing this one.  I was stuck- as always and just in the dumps about it.  And as I'd been learning to trust him with other things and pray more about every day things it occurred to me to pray about my book.  REALLY.  I'm not saying this for me, GOD has used ME????   Its CRAZY but he HAS and to see this book complete and in my hands, all printed nice, I'm like "WOW!"

And its edited too!  The money for that was provided by my Jesus and I was able to get that done, after finding out a new friend was an editor!

God is so grand and the way he's released me in my everyday life, from being irritated at siblings to being on stage singing as a family I'm learning I MUST release everything I have/want/am to Jesus.  He gave me my life and all that it entails but NOT for me to mess up, but to give back and ask him what to do.

So if you want the link's below!

His baby girl,
Faith 

http://literarymaidens.blogspot.com/p/our-books_05.html

Thursday, February 6, 2014

He Chooses Me and I Choose Him!

I  found this lovely song.  The girl who wrote it is interesting, the message is amazing!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ooiLP_zqnFs

I am really finding that God is the BEST lover of all time and the only one I will be able to completely trust forever.


Song of Solomon 2:16
My beloved is mine, and I am his: he feedeth among the lilies.

Song of Solomon 6:3
I am my beloved's, and my beloved is mine: he feedeth among the lilies.
2 Thessalonians 3:5
And the Lord direct your hearts into the love of God, and into the patient waiting for Christ.
 
Here are her lyrics, with my thoughts in periphrasis:

Let the bough break, let it come down crashing
(I don't care what happens with God in control)
Let the sun fade out to a dark sky
I can't say I'd even notice it was absent
Cause I could live by the light in your eyes
(On my first plane flight I saw the brightness of sunlit clouds and it made me realize God's light is even
The beauty of God! See the video.
brighter!)

I'll unfold before you
Would have strung together (I am learning to do this with Him now.  I was made by him and I have NOTHING to fear before Him!)
The very first words
Of a lifelong love letter  (A LIFE-LONG love letter!  His bible is helping so- his love letter to me!)

Tell the world that we finally got it all right (The Lord can tell the world he has me full-er now!)
I choose you  (And he chose me FIRST  amazing!)
I will become yours and you will become mine (Song of Solomon, my favorite verses)
I choose you
I choose you
(Yeah)

There was a time when I would have believed them (I did, even about Christ.)
If they told me that you could not come true
Just love's illusion (I believed you were an imagination, deep in my heart- even saved- I thought a relationship with you was a joke)
But then you found me and everything changed (EVERYTHING!)  :)
And I believe in something again 

My whole heart
Will be yours forever (FOREVER... in God's book matrimonial love actually doesn't last forever.)
This is a beautiful start
To a lifelong love letter

Tell the world that we finally got it all right (I will tell the world too, but if I want I can just relax in His arms, without a worry!)
I choose you
I will become yours and you will become mine  (Song of Solomon)
I choose you
I choose you

We are not perfect
We'll learn from our mistakes (I am REALLY doing so right now!  Jesus is now my LOVE nothing else)
And as long as it takes
I will prove my love to you  (YES!  Because He first did, in the BEST way)

I am not scared of the elements  (or principalities)
I am underprepared, but I am willing  (to learn from him and I am SO underprepared)
And even better  (Yes SOOO much better)
I get to be the other half of you (Amen!  We are on with Jesus!!!!!  Read John 17)

Tell the world that we finally got it all right
I choose you
I will become yours and you will become mine
I choose you
I choose you


Thank you Jesus!  You are the author and maker of me and the very lover of my soul!  Your perfect love is insurmountable!   Untouchable, beyond belief and yet soo REAL, actual, present and true.

Only, because of your love am I now your lover, now I am one with you and the Father!
Praise Him!
-Faith
 

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Musings

Just as the 'dream' in our heads and the 'love' of our dreams is longed for and loved.  So much more does God need to be.  He is our only reason for breathing.  Sometimes its hard to understand why we long so much for a loved one, but it all comes back to God.  He made us girls that way.  To want a man, to want a man to love and cherish and care for. 

God wants us to dream, yes, but what will we do with those dreams? That is the key.
I could write on all the different things we tend to do with those dreams but for now I'll just touch on the one lesson I've been working on: We CAN'T make idols of men, our dreams, a certain man, etc.  "But I'm not" you might say. 
But what is an idol?

Here's from Webster's 1828 dictionary (http://1828.mshaffer.com/d/word/idol)

idol

I'DOL, n. [L. idolum; Gr. form or to see.]


1. An image, form or representation, usually of a man or other animal, consecrated as an object of worship; a pagan deity. Idols are usually statues or images, carved out of wood or stone, or formed of metals, particularly silver or gold.

The gods of the nations are idols. Ps.96.
2. An image.

Nor ever idol seemed so much alive.
3. A person loved and honored to adoration. The prince was the idol of the people.
4. Any thing on which we set our affections; that to which we indulge an excessive and sinful attachment.

Little children, keep yourselves from idols. 1 John.5. (verse 21)

An idol is any thing which usurps the place of God in the hearts of his rational creatures.
5. A representation. [Not in use.]


I, like all the rest of the human race am prone to worship something (God made us that way).  And most often as young unmarried women we tend to fill that role with men, or one man in particular.  VERY dangerous (certainly while NOT married, even after in some cases)!  Like Mr. Webster said in number 4.  That is an idol exactly and we can't do that.

"Turn ye not unto idols, nor make to yourselves molten gods: I am the Lord your God."  Leviticus 19:4

As I said I've been learning this lesson.  And it may seem easy, but its not.  And neither is life.  God will gently help us through these fun, exciting times as well as uncomfortable and unfamiliar areas to get us stronger.  Perhaps for our future (which only HE knows, like Mandisa says here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=emgv-VRtMEU)!   How sweet he is, and kind.  He's gone over several lessons (and still is) with me so that I can get them correctly and thoroughly, as I tend to learn things the hard way... :)  He's still got the patience to 'sit' and study it with me.  Praise God! :D

And this song sums it all up for me and God.  I we had gone down to Rockport, TX before I first heard this and in Rockport I had a wonderful time walking in the ocean and collecting seashells (for the first time since I was 9 or 10, even if the water temp was so cold :P).  Marveling at God's awesome works was so fun, and then the moon rose over the freezing ocean too, it was lovely!  Then this song... and its lyrics (about seashells)! 
But God isn't only 'My Muse' (as the song title), he's my love, my heartbeat, and my breath.  He's my maker and guide in this world, ruled by the prince of darkness.   Thank God I have the creator of the universe (and beyond) for my ever present guide! 

"Little children, keep yourselves from idols. Amen." 1st John 5:21

For His Glory,
Faith Elizabeth Grubb