Saturday, October 17, 2015

A Married Woman

"The Lord liveth, and blessed be the rock and let the God of my salvation be exalted" Psalms 18:46

(Credit goes to my sister in law, Olivia for the couple photos of us, do check out her website:

The Lord has written, worked on, crafted, planned and designed the BEST thing.... Our love story.

A year ago I was doubtful marriage would be anytime 'soon'... And even March 1st if you had told me 'you'll get married 6 months' I'd have laughed.  I really felt it would be far off (as I think I mentioned in my last blogpost).

The Lord has really opened up my next stage in life 'quickly' compared to this current world's ideas. But along with everything else I LOVE old fashioned and (who would've thought -God's the BEST husband picker) so does my man, thus an 'old fashioned' FAST style courtship. ;)

Though we planned to marry in Novemeber in Texas it was when my family and I came up to Virginia September 15th (to visit the Meggs family for a week) that Elijah and I after much talk and consideration and prayers and counsel from our parents decided to get married early.  We decided to Saturday evening (the 19th) and then on Sunday afternoon after church with his friends and family and my family on such a nice fall day at 3pm my Love and I became man and wife, Mr. and Mrs. Elijah J. Meggs.  Then as we came out of church we were greeted by my favorite weather, misting rain!  And the beautiful Blueridge mountains made the perfect photography background!!!!  A TRUE dream come true of mine (mountain wedding photos)! :D

Let me let you read that again.  Yes, I'm married!  :)    We've only 'just' met on March 5th but it seems like we've known each other for decades!  We had only spent a total of 22 days together in life when we decided to marry.  But we'd shared souls as best (and as often) as possible over the computer since March 22nd. :)

We were both a bit surprised to marry soon ourselves but we were continually reassured to go ahead and do it.  I have since (in all these 16 days of marriage) found multiple reasons why the Lord had us marry 'this' soon.  It was actually only 6 weeks ahead of schedule.

We still will have the wedding we've been planning in Texas. It will be for my friends and family there.  Here I was glad his many like minded friends could all attend, in Texas they wouldn't have gotten to come.  I had brought an older wedding dress for engagement photos, but it served me well as my wedding gown and a shawl from one of the women of church served as my veil.  Unique- just how I like things! :D  I am very grateful for the VERY Jesus centered ceremony both pastors (friends of the Meggs) did.  And I was VERY blessed to have the entire church family jump in and make my wedding day so special, beautiful, calm, sweet, priceless and memorable!!!  And they only found out about 2 hours prior to the wedding! Talk about friends!!!!!!!!!!!! (And they all had only met me the day before!) :D

Originally we had an engagement party planned to follow the morning church service but instead we had a wedding, oh it was FUN!!!!  And the BEST day of my life after the day I met Jesus! :D

Elijah and I will still honeymoon as planned in November after the Texas wedding.  We don't regret any of it and would do it over again if need be. :)  Our God is bigger than we think and though when we decided to marry we were yet without a home or idea of where exactly to move we married anyway (knowing the Lord wished us to).  And after our first night in a hotel we went to the Meggs (were my family still was staying) and came in to Mrs. Meggs who told us of a place offered us by a fellow believer not far.  So we went and looked over a small one room apartment on private property and were told by the owner that if we cleaned it up we could have it for a VERY reasonable price every month, but the first two months we'd only have to pay utilities!  Both our families were more than eager and willing to clean it up with/for us. And we instantly knew it was our's by the way it was ready and all 'empty' and waiting for us!  On the way to 'see' it I even remember thinking, "This would be our drive home every time, how lovely" and it is!!!!  I live on top of a mountain, and only 15 minutes from his work and 15 minutes from his family's.  I am finding my way around fast and we actually own our own car now too!  Another fantastic God gift!  He provided the perfect type of vehicle, the same price we were looking at, the 'special' moon/sun roof feature Elijah and I both REALLY enjoy and the right timing!  We have our new phones, and phone plan (my other phone actually broke on the way up here and his old one was messing up).

I have my birth certificate in now too (from Mama in Texas) and now will work on legally changing my name. I already am Mrs. Meggs and the marriage license is all done, but now for my I.D.. :)

Together we are working on language now, French and Arabic for the mission work we plan on doing.  Sometime between February and May on next year we plan to go to north Africa.

We're also enjoying VERY simple living yet thanks to the Lord's prompting alone I brought some of my household things to give Elijah and I also brought a good extra amount of clothing.  We are doing very well in our little home and are quite fond of this married life stuff! :D
We get to share and do everything together! We plan to do some more hiking and bike trails before its too cold and I can't wait to spend the rest of my days with Elijah!  He is SOOOO much sweeter than I really knew and he is WAY wiser too!  The Lord has PERFECTLY fashioned us for one another, I see new things here and there every now and then and pretty much something new everyday that reminds me of how precise the Lord is!  We so often DO forget how he DOES keep the world from spinning out of control and keeps the oceans in sink with the moon and the sun at its correct distance from burning us all on earth.   He even is mindful of man!  Yet not only that, he has remembered my every desire in a man and put it in Elijah!  It is CRAZY realizing the KINDNESS of my Father in heaven!  He's SOOOOOOOOOOOO sweet and we FORGET HIM?????????
I am so guilty of this!  And as we prepare to serve the Lord at whatever cost satan is attacking already, so I ask that you please keep us in your prayers!

I still have email but I no longer have a facebook for me. Elijah and I share one. :)

Blessed beyond my mind's comprehension!
~Faith Elizabeth Meggs~

Our 'Meggs' coat of arms, my blue veil and bouquet here at home.

Thursday, October 15, 2015

Stay Tuned!

Another post coming soon, so "STAY TUNED"... ;)

Monday, September 7, 2015

Yearnings... A Hug from a Man

I have been really busy wedding planning!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

It is sooner than many of you might think, coming up in November!

We are ready and needn't waste any time.  We have waited years already! :)

Anyway here is some old poetry I wrote back in 2014.

Tis what was on my heart.... Its not entirely poetry, but is thoughts.

Yearnings by Faith Grubb
I'll wait till the end of time, if I need to wait, for a hug from a man.
I'll wait till I see my savior, if I need to wait, to hold a man's hand.  And tho' I yearn to and tho' I long to see the feeling of what it is to be a wife I will wait, if I need to wait and return as the bride of Christ.
But he's given these dreams to me, and I know I'm given these yearnings. I know he is faithful and he will not let my needs return void.  
And I'll wait till the end of time, before I need to receive a hug from a man.  And I'll wait til I see my savior if I need to wait till I hold a man's hand.  And I'll wait to hold a man close, till it must be my savior alone, it must be what he wills it to be. 

"...I'll wait till the end of time, if I need to wait, for a hug from a man...."
I yearn for a man.  And many men come into mind, but its not my choice of who I marry.  And that's the hard part is waiting on you, Lord, and yet knowing that your plans and your choice is best, he'll be the perfect father to my kids the perfect spouse for me, he'll probably draw me out of my shell -some of the shells I have, or he'll hold me in the shell, in my other areas. Uh you do that perfectly, you've done it with Christy and Stephen, Daddy and Mama and Anna and Daniel (friends of mine).  And you'll have the perfect family for me. Um they will be- he will have the best sisters I need sisters in law, parents in law, I just need to relax and trust!  And get busy doing what I need to do.............. And you've given us those dreams.......  And its just amazing. 

Reading this again quickens my heart, knowing the providence of our Heavenly Father!  He has been my long time Lover (and continues to be) before Elijah, now I am learning to be his lover WITH a man here on earth!  It is a wonder..... It is a vast miracle, far beyond my comprehension!  And in every tiny little thing I have dreamed of about my 'future husband' My Dear Jesus has answered and given me these tiny dreams and fulfilled them not JUST to completion but ABOVE AND BEYOND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wait upon the Lord and again I say WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! His BEST is worth it!  And is BEAUTIFULLY fulfilling!!!!!!!
His child and Lover Forever I remain!

Saturday, August 15, 2015

~Elijah James Meggs~

"Trust in the Lord, and do good; so shalt thou dwell in the land,  
and verily thou shalt be fed.    Delight thyself also in the Lord:  
and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.   Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass."
Psalms 37:3-5

August 8th, 2015 We took a walk with Daddy and Mama.

I am going to be married....   But not just that...........    I'm going to marry Elijah James Meggs......

Yes to you he's no one.   He's a name... And may always be just that to you..........   But to me, in my world, he's everything, right after the Creator Jesus!

He's strong, handsome, brave, tall, blue-eyed, a knock-out, cowboyish, history-loving, eye-candy.... and most of all a man after God's heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He's a man I love with all my heart, mind, and strength and one I won't EVER give up.      He's one I've waited 23 years for and would willing to wait another 20, if need be but it would be OHHHH SOOOO LOOOONNNNGGGGGG yet short - for the love I have for him would make it seem days! 

  My Beloved isn't just a man.   Another face....   He's the one I've had to pass up other men for.   He's the one I've had to hold my soul for.   He's the one I've prayed for and asked God to pick.....   Because the men I've picked weren't quite 'right'.......

To wait IS HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   You virgins (like me) KNOW THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You've heard it EVERYWHERE 'its worth the wait'..... I say again it IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Let me begin the story before you all skip to it! ;)

So you've heard of these 'Shindigs' aye?    If not, they're gatherings of Christian homeschoolers across America,  hosted by No Greater Joy.   As we all seem to live in remote areas where good 'mates' around our age (with similar beliefs) are RARE or not there they created these for us to 'mingle' and get to know each other! ;)    These are fun.   But they were NOT only for 'young adults' either, so it was fun to see many families from across the nation.   At the first one (which was in 2012) I learned a huge lesson, simply MEET fellas - that's all - JUST meet them as people.... they are the other half of the race and we HAVE to get along to exist on earth my dears! :D   (As a dreamy-Go-to girl I had to set aside the 'flutters' and just learn that every male is NOT someone to get fluttery over)! :)   
You see my sisters and I grew up thinking it was a sin to even talk to a guy (BUT our parents NEVER taught us this, it was my weird brain and I think some weird books the girls read that taught it to us).....  

So that's where I came from!   Then the Lord slowly taught me how to get along with and just MEET people in general, old men, old women, little girls, boys, men my age, 40 year olds, ladies my age, 56 etc............   :)   People are LOTS of fun and I just was soo excited getting to know folks in general and you really learn about the way the Lord made individuality!!!   Its FUN to see his different designs either reoccur in odd habits people have, or reoccur in two TOTALLY different people, but yet they both have the EXACT 'cookie cutter' smile, or facial feature.... God's REALLY funny sometimes! :D  

I was in a relationship with someone early this year and it sadly ended pretty fast........   I was hurt, but I was planning our family's 4 -day March Shoot Out (mini Shindig) and HAD to go on and knew BEYOND the shadow of a doubt that it was the Lord's will for that to end.....   It was REALLY tough... As the Lord (in the conclusion of that) seemed to bluntly ask me, "Do you want marriage that bad, or me?"   I had to give up that man and marriage and so follow and choose the Lord over him.      Talk about HARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   
Then a week went by and folks were arriving for our Shindig......   It was  March 5th  and a tiny car from Virginia pulled up and 3 VERY handsome fellas (ALL tall and good looking AND with cowboy hats) hopped out.... I was thinking 'how could they fit in that tiny car?'   They were so tall.... especially one...................   Elijah Meggs.......... (That is something I do remember noticing was his height over the other two...)   :) :) :) :) :)
(Elijah, his brother Josh and his friend Adam came).

My first impression was 'COOL, more good lookers, just to get to know.' ;)    After that break-up I wasn't too keen on quickly starting to share my life with a new fella....... again...........      But even minutes after they arrived (as Elijah and Adam went around the house to find a tent site) I watched 'em and wanted OH SO BAD to run outside and 'help' them ;) ;) ;) ;) ;) ;) ;) ;) ;) ;) ;) ;)

Later they all came in to jam and play music, he sang with his brother Josh, and after they sang some I told him he had a good voice.... his look was like 'Yeah right! You flatterer!'.........   I was like 'oops'.......... (Also I don't compliment everyone's voice...... ;) )

Then the dancing and all happened and I began to like him - a lot.   I even thought of the other fella   (I had just broke up with) while we all got ready to dance one night and was sad he wasn't there, but again the Lord reassured me he had things the way they were for a reason. So I stood back and I liked watching Elijah dance, and tried to stand near him to be asked by him......................... (he seemed to ignore me)....    It worked one particular time and that was SO funny!!!!   He and I had stood side by side watching the one dance, then he turned abruptly and said "You want to dance?" and as he did another guy (Luke) came up to ask me at the same time! Elijah nudged Luke and said "I was here first" while I said yes to Elijah.   But after nudging Luke Elijah told him, "But if she wants to dance with you..."   Luke laughed and said "I wouldn't let her go after she accepted!"   Elijah was like "Oh she did?" and took my hand!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D
That was a fun memory!      So I was flirting with him, trying to talk to HIM when I could... but just bugged his brother, Josh, about him instead. ;)   (Sorry Josh... you were easy to get info from)!!!!!!!!!!!!

And then as time went on, he was teasing me as we played games...   We played Two-Touch football one day and as we played on opposite teams I noticed he began to 'cheat' and move the starting line for his team's advantage!   I was like "Huh he's getting away with cheating and wants his way and thinks I DON'T know the rules... but I DO!"   I also was just having fun and NOT really (but slightly) watching him!   :)   I LOVE football and hadn't played in about 3 or 4 years.... So that was REALLY fun!!!!!!!!!!!   :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
We talked (a tiny bit) about beliefs and the lost and the mission field, and he and Josh had their dreams and lives 'mapped out' (but they were 'open' to the LORD mapping out things)!!!!!!! They knew where they wanted to go... I was told that Elijah wanted to go to Central Asia(near Russia) to minister.....      And that was neat I thought... Maybe my German could be used there.....    Josh was going to college to be a nurse to use that in missions, Elijah was studying English to be an English teacher, and Adam was planning a trip to Ukraine!    These 3 guys from Virginia where just REALLY on fire for Jesus and there was NO mistaking that - it was just MIND BLOWING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D   And God seemed to say "See Faith, wait for a fella like one of these."    I was like "Okay... I can wait and its gonna be a WHILE..." (little did I know!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Then we played another game and I REALLY 'haunted' him in that one.... He was such a good player and I got 'in jail' several times just to talk to him 'about the game'! ;)

So when they left I thought to myself "You know you may NEVER see this fella again and you'd better NOT set your heart on a daydream again!"      (I have burned my tongue on ice before.... dreaming up such a simple meeting into something more that was NEVER there!...)    Anyway so they left and as they did Elijah was forgetting things.   I felt like an UTTER FOOL as I gathered HIS things (knowing they weren't Josh's or Adam's) and bringing them to him.... I was SURE everyone KNEW I was REALLY fond of him!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And then they had to leave. :(

The days afterwards he wouldn't leave my mind.... so I prayed....... LOTS....... and all we had was their mailing address, yet I WASN'T gonna write him a LETTER!!!!!!!!!!   BUT they had left some things behind.... and I knew they needed them ;)   I sought counsel from Mama and several other women telling them I WAS fond of the guy but didn't know him much and wanted to 'keep in touch'.    I was encouraged to write him.   I wrote him about the things they left behind on  March 15th.   It was a busy week ahead and I didn't hear anything back............ I was sure I had scared him off completely! :( :( :(   I just continued to pray non-stop, that ONLY the LORD's will be done and that he'd take away this LONGING and YEARNING to get to know Elijah Meggs....... as it was rather distracting! ;) ;) ;)      In that week I DID research Elijah Meggs on google... I found a VERY interesting find.......   His name showed up on a homeschooled family's blog, and a trip to Africa was mentioned...... and I saw photos of Elijah in an African/Arabian robe (called a Captani)!!!!!!   My heart has been set on Arabia and the Sahara dessert (for YEARS) and I was like "WOW!!!! There's my 'Lawerance of Arabia'!!!!!"   When Josh was talking of missions he mentioned how HE wanted to go to Africa, but had said Elijah wanted to go to Central Asia (now looking back I think he only said this for precaution - I was a near stranger!).    I was like WHAT??????????????????   But just prayed.   And thought maybe he went there and didn't like it, so he chose Central Asia?

So that week was long and hard... then I found him on facebook on the  21st of March. Still no word, then I decided I'd write him a note on there, a 'I like your encouraging posts' thing....   NOTHING much ;)    As I clicked on his name it showed me a message FROM HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    (His message was from  MARCH 14th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

He had asked about his things and some photos.   So there it began....... we wrote............ like NON-Stop!!!!!!!!!!! :)   We were corresponding rather 'heavily' - daily at least, sometimes more. :)
As he was working full time and studying too (and topics were getting deeper) he wrote Daddy and asked if he was allowed to keep writing me and he 'slowed' it down to once a week and made it clear we were ONLY friends........... that was hard, but I was willing to even slow to once a month, JUST to continue writing HIM!!!!!!!!!!! 
In June, as another 'gathering' came up, I was VERY sad he couldn't make it (the Spring Mingle - this one was for young adults) and there I actually met another fella, a lot like Elijah.   And though I was writing Elijah he had asked NOTHING and made it clear we were only friends.... I was very unsure if he was only writing to 'be nice' or to simply be a 'sibling in Christ' pen-pal..... So I remained 'open' to other men, as I wasn't 'claimed'. :)

So when we came home from that I was sorta surprised to find that other guy wanting to write me....    I didn't wish to betray or be rude to either man, so I just simply told both of them the facts.   “Currently I am writing a guy/you  purely as a friend, and now I shall write both of you, simply as friends.”
That was VERY HARD to write.   And yet I knew it needed writing and I knew I was attracted and liked both, but was 'more involved' with Elijah and did not wish to 'begin' afresh with another... but knew I could if I needed to.   Whatever the Lord required of me.    When I wrote that I did secretly wish it'd make Elijah jealous.......... but what would he care?   I was some crazy 'nag' from Texas!!!!!!!! :)   Unlike usual I didn't hear anything from Elijah for about 2 to 3 days.   He was silent.... I was like 'okay... you scared him off........' :(   The other fellow was VERY understanding...... (I hated to be so rude to him, but I had to be upfront... and not sneaky)....

Then Mama stopped me in the kitchen and said "Did you get an email?"   I said "From who?"   She had a twinkle in her eyes and she said "You'll see...."   :)

So of course I had to check my email........... and WOW!!!!!!!!! An email from Elijah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D   I opened it and unlike others he was apologizing.... I was like "Oh no!   Its a 'goodbye' email'...." :(    But as I read on I was ready to SCREAM for JOY!   He said "I am sorry if I surprise you here, but I am VERY JEALOUS and don't like the idea of SHARING you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
After SOOOOOO long of writing I was like YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   That was  June 23rd  at about  4pm......... ;)   
So that's when we officially began courting. 

Then about a month later in emailing, Elijah was saying how couldn't wait to hold me.... ;)   In my mind I was thinking "WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!   I can't wait either.... but I'm only courting you and you never 'claimed' me?????"........ ;) ;) ;)  
So............ :)   I just simply replied to him, "When is all this gonna happen?"

He said “as soon as possible..... ;)”   Then he asked my Daddy.......... :) :) :) :) :) :)   (He'd been talking to Daddy off and on since April). :)

Then Daddy asked me when I wanted Elijah to come down, as it was a question he should ask in person!!!!!!!!!!!!!   And so we picked some dates.   Then Daddy and Mama gave Elijah the dates, and they got word back from him that he'd come down, but not to tell me when........ So.... that was REALLY exciting!!!!!!!!!!!   Having to be on pins and needles... he could show up at ANY time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!     

Then  on Friday morning (August 7th) as I went to check my phone to see if he emailed..... at my desk..... I saw out my window he and Adam come around the house..... I was gasping... "Its.... its.... them......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"   He came in and we side-hugged for the first time EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    That was stiff and our stomachs were instantly invaded by swarms of butterflies!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D   
So right off the bat Mama had us make the menu and then go shopping!!!!!!!!!!!!!   Abigail 'attended' us and then at the Dollar store my cousin, whom I hardly see, checked us out and that was a blessing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   :) :) :) :) :)    The Lord was just 'showing us off'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D    And the Neals (our friend's) dance was that night!   And I was sooo excited and nervous for I would be going with my BEAU, for the first time.... and this had all been 'under wraps'.... for we weren't certain and hey.... for the fun of it too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   

And now for photos.... :)   He's a VERY handsome fella and I am one blessed lady.....   The Lord has chosen this dude.    I was NOT ready for another man to come into my life and was resisting Elijah (at first) a bit.... But the Lord reassured me I must let things be and let the Lord write my love story........ As a writer that can be really hard!   But it is best left to the Lord.    He doesn't forget anything... every little dream I felt was too 'wild' or 'minor' to ask God for... he gave it to me in my Elijah James Meggs......... Little things I'd dream of at age 6.... 

Its only the Lord's design that is most BEAUTIFUL!   And I am overwhelmed and SOO ungrateful for all the blessings he's given me with, in and through Elijah.   

But like the salvation of the Lord, we were and never ARE gonna be deserving so we can only stand back in awe at the gifts the Father bestows on us!   We're his children and he delights in our delights, thus he fulfills our tiny desires and dreams (if our heart is in tune with his, our desires and dreams are his desires and dreams for us, re-read the top verses)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)  

His visit Aug. 7th through 11th 2015. 

I took him on a drive and for on a walk!

My family had us do the meals and dishes together. 

Sunday August 9th, before any proposal, we went  
ring shopping (and buying ;) .... see it on my hand???)

I took him to meet my Memaw after ring shopping!

   Then after we came home, I was showing my siblings and his friend the ring photos (the ring had to be sent off to get re-sized) and I got a tap on the shoulder and turned about to see him with yellow roses..... He dropped to one knee and told me "I know I don't have much money, so would you take a poor man's roses? Will you be my wife?"   Of course I said YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    (I sing Patsy Cline's old song "A Poor Man's Roses"....) 

After he asked!!!!!

After we got the roses in a vase ;)

Our last hug before he left..... a VERY bitter sweet!!!!!!!!!
WOW!!!!!!!!!!! I'm engaged Y'ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I didn't really conclude it, but... Elijah and I plan to move to Africa as missionaries next year.   Do keep us in your prayers and we thank you soo much for all your encouragement!   It's tough to wait for God's best sometimes, but it is WORTH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And MORE fulfilling than anything else EVER!!!!!!!!!!   Knowing you're where God wants you is the BEST FEELING EVER (even better than my man's hug, stay FOCUSED on   JESUS!)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To God be the GLORY, GREAT things he hath done! :) :) :) :) :) :)

His Holy Child,
Faith Elizabeth Grubb

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

A Wee Little Girl Dream

Once upon a time there was a wee little girl,
She dreamed and thought and dreamed. 

On the swings or making mud pies, 
She dreamed, pondered some then would dream.

Riding bikes or playing with things,
She dreamed, and wondered and then dreamed again!
Even washing the table or sweeping the floor,
Boy! She dreamed and thought then she'd dream again!

When afraid to cry or talk,
this wee little girl kept wondering and dreaming away.

Though her dreams weren't too out of the ordinary,
They grew and grew
As she dreamed and dreamed again.

Playing "house", or fort with her friends
She always dreamed and then dreamed again.

Praying for the food, watching adults talk or yell,
She thought and dreamed.

Combing her Mama's hair, or cuddling her dolls
She kept dreaming and thinking on and on.

As time went by her dreams didn't die,
Lost a bit they wandered, but she'd find 'em again
And dream and dream.

She started to feel silly for such dreams,
But on and on she dreamed these dreams.

From another world they were her world
And though hard to believe them she'd dream 'em anyway.

Why they wouldn't let go 
or be buried she wanted to know...

Now all grown, she still dreams her dreams,
For tiny or huge, medium or minor, important or not
She has seen many come true.

And she knows they've been counted 
and remembered by her maker and Lord.

For he little by little unwraps before her
Each special dream to the last detail of color and size!!!

And she dreams and dreams a Bigger dream now, 
To go meet and glorify her Lord EVER MORE!
And so the wee little girl, once upon a time, dreamedAnd that little girl is me.

My sisters and I playing house.  Clockwise L to R: Melody,
Christina 'on the phone' and the hog is moi! 

Tuesday, July 21, 2015


So Mama, Joshua, Abigail and I just got home!  For a long time we've loved the herbs sold by Shoshanna Eastling, of Bulk Herb Store!  And now Melody got the opportunity to intern there!!! :D
So we just got home from dropping her off.  While up there we got to visit our friends, the Taylor family!  That was a blast and such a blessed time!  It was very fun to get to hang out and help them around their farm! :)

Here are some photos:
This is Thomas and Naomi Taylor!  We hiked up to this point
(we Abi Taylor too) before it was sunset.
Sarah and Abi Taylor and I picked this row of
green beans down at the neighboring Amish farm.

At the Taylors, anywhere.  I'm barefoot - an addiction, a life.

Melody at her new work! :D 

The road from Melody's house. 

The Taylor's porch swing was awesome every sunrise!
And their little ones and I hung out there a lot.

Joshi and their boys jumping! :)

Naomi and I before we left.  She's such a beauty!

You all enjoy your summer! And I am sorry this blogging has been sporadic.  I am getting busy!
Loving life is a GREAT pastime, so I implore you go out live, love, laugh and exit for Jesus, kick yourself for foolishness and go on love your life!!! :D

"The preparations of the heart in man, and the answer of the tongue, is from the Lord. All the ways of man are clean in his own eyes; but the Lord weigheth the spirits. Commit thy works unto the Lord, and thy thoughts shall be established." Proverbs 16:1-3 and verse 9, "A man's heart deviseth his way: but the Lord directeth his steps." 

Direct my steps!

Forever His Holy Child,
Faith Elizabeth

Monday, July 13, 2015

Soul 'flying'

A flag made 'offensive', something 'offensive' (to me) made legal, arrests, fines, fightings, shootings and rumors of wars...

My heart is not grieved anymore.  It's sickened, its sore, its numbed with this pain... and at this joyful stage of life (of being a 23 year old young woman) I'm hurt.  I'm sick of it.  I am not in shock.  I have seen it coming. But I'm ill.

This is the country I've grow up to love, the land of my father's.  But I must as Christ's child realize this isn't my home.  I'm just (think about that, 'just': simply, only) passing through.

And though I really love this land, and its brave history and biblical foundation, my heart can only trust in the creator of the universes.  Not in my country.
To have my heart ever going to be settled, steadfast, or be, yes, free I must only hang my hopes on Jesus.

To ever be free in mind, soul and body my fear must alone be in Christ.  Not man (as I've mentioned before).  And as I see devices of the wicked one 'rise up' and fly.  I am aware persecution may not be too far round the bend.  But this is no threat to me, or worry.  If Christ would find us worthy enough to suffer for him under any torture or pain, oh what joy unspeakable we will learn to have!  I have been reading "Tortured for Christ" and to hear of the peace and settled hearts those martyrs and blessed ones had!  It reminds me of how little I really do know persecution.  I don't really at all.  But to read of their settled hearts and the way their souls were so lost in the Lord's arms that hideous tortures no longer 'touched' them I see how they did experience the privilege  of soul 'flying'... Their soul 'left' their bodies prior to death, somewhat.  No not completely.  But the bodies far away felt the tortures while their soul just rested and hid in the arms of the Lord Jesus!   What does this have to do with you and I?  You and I can have a wonderful peace that passes all understanding if we just remain in our Christ!

I've learned that Jesus is very jealous.  He wants us to return to him daily, this is NOT a requirement, NOT a duty, but he wants us to really know and find our need for him.  And not just daily, but hourly, minute by minute. :)  In our weakness, he is made strong.  When we realize our need he can work through us! :D

Myself at about age 3 or 4.  We should be as
careless little children letting our soul hide in Jesus!
Still when my homeland, who's claimed to love my God spits in his face and at the laws he made to protect us I'm not sick anymore.  I am ready for soul flying.  I am ready to face any torture satan can throw at me for doing things God's way.   What we need to do is to witness of what Christ has done in your life, and share the good news!  The only thing that made America what it is, is the Christians who were the majority of the society.  That's the only way you can get a strong, peaceable, but willing to fight for it, free country!  God's way! :D

So for our country, I'm not saying let it burn, and forget it, or give up.  But rather minister to its people.  For this is truly where any country starts.  With the type of people its made of.  Sodom and Gomorrah was known for the people whom lived in it.  Your town is known for its people.  Not the buildings, and if for a building, for the builder who built it (its people).  

If we could unite and respect each other's differences at the same time, what could the church (the body of Christ) do?  We could do oh so much and instead we're only 'whining' or still re-discussing the flag, and the court order... Its done y'all action now.  Please!   Christ hates lukewarm folks...  Are you hot or cold?  Most Americans are just warm, and they sicken me... I am refreshed when I meet either a HOT (on fire) Christian or a Cold (icy non-believer).  They are both gutsy enough to stand for something not be fence sitters....

The King, Lord Jesus, of Heaven and EARTH is coming back, we know not what the hour, or minute.... Could be now, are you ready to admit how 'warm' or 'cold' or 'hot' you've been?

His trying to stay HOT daughter,

Friday, July 3, 2015

Lessons for Faith....

Stumbled back in my blog posts.... came across this old blog post called "Life Seasons".

I hope you will find what I found in re-reading it.  The gravity of the message. Time is fleeting... (that was 2 years ago)!  And we need to be/remain in the Father's will.  And not get distracted with what we want to do or be or where we want to go.

I am also amazed by the 'truth' I wrote then about how those lessons then would be for me to better understand the next lesson.... Those lessons learned (partially not 100%...) then are still being 'exercised' today! :D

His blessings are all around every minute every day!  Search for them on this treasure hunt of life! :)
-Faith Ellie

Saturday, June 27, 2015

Soul Food

My preface here:
"All the ways of man are clean in his own eyes, but the Lord weigheth the spirits." Proverbs 16:2

I have been reading "Tortured for Christ" by Brother Wurmbrand.  And this verse makes me realize the need for 'soul food' as well as the reading of this book!  Brother Wurmbrand said how he realized the tortures he and Christians went through taught him that the spirit and soul rule the body.  The body 'feels' and 'endures' the pain but it was distant to him when his soul was grounded in the Lord's safe arms!  :)     And thus the other verse "Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me." Psalm 23:4 comes completely to life!

So for my article! :)
I have 'tried' to memorize scripture for years...  Always failing horribly (falling flat on my face every time - if you know what I mean)!

Oddly in just making sure to read scripture daily (be that a verse of two or three chapters) I have found my soul memorizing it!   But that 'type' of memorization I only remember the words slightly and the order is still off and the reference is 'lost in the shuffle'.  But I have made myself write down a verse daily for a week and memorize a verse a week, with the reference to remember that as well. That is very important to me as you must know where this great phrase comes from! :)  You must know the speaker you're quoting too right?  Same thing here and if you know its a Psalm of David he's who you're quoting, or a verse in Matthew is it Jesus you're directly quoting or Matthew's take on things? :)

Anyway all this to say it's been an interesting journey of learning.  I am not a good reader still.  And it gets tiring to read 'boring' chapters sometimes.  But when I 'accidentally' run across Isaiah 18 and its um 'realness' and 'shocking-ness' of it!  In it I saw the character of the Lord Jesus!  He doesn't care how offened you'll get/be and he created us himself, so he knows everything.  And he'll make his point anyway he wants... Can you imagine the 'Christians' of the time probably thinking Isaiah was just some nutcase who 'thought' he was following God.  I mean surely they were thinking 'God would never make a REAL prophet of his go naked for three years'... Hey folks God is God and he can do what he feels like!

I've also learned his simple Proverbs and warnings are EACH (I mean why do we think he'd just fill a book with unnecessary things? -but our brains do think that way at first) there for a reason!  They EACH mean something and if we don't heed them life will be tough and hard and dangerous!
For example our family has been reading Proverbs since I was a little girl (if not a baby)... And some little proverbs just always didn't make sense or bothered me.  Like "Only by pride cometh contention: but with the well advised is wisdom." (Prov. 13:10)
This one was hard for me to grasp, as a child being taught 'We're proud of America' and we're proud of each other.  But here it was saying by pride???  This didn't make sense until you let your soul 'speak' as it were and show you the filthy pride we all possess!  It's an ugly, ugly ogre that doesn't only cause contentions but also tried to dissolve family ties, or relationships!  And this verse, "Commit thy works unto the Lord, and thy thoughts shall be established."  (Prov. 16:3).  I wanted my thoughts established but what does 'commit thy works' mean?  That was a tough one, and I learned these over time not in studying these particular verses, but in just reading these over and over and now that I've been through some things I'm like 'That's why he said that!'  or 'He knows what he's talking about WHY did I ever doubt him???'

His Proverbs are all so inspiring and RICH!  In reading one chapter I miss maybei 15 of the little proverb concepts and my brain just 'catches' the ones that pop out.  Which is neat, but if I'd only spend longer and just study each one, they're each so packed with millions of nuggets of golden wisdom and truths!  And I'm a HUGE 'justice' person.  But I've learned you know 'The Lord hath made all things for himself: yea, even the wicked for the day of evil.'  So I needn't worry about why do the wicked get to be so wicked and rich?  And there's even a verse about envying not the wicked... (another verse I 'memorized' but don't know where its from...).

Anyway I'm just in awe of his words and how enriching they are and NO wonder he said 'Man doesn't live by bread alone'!

It's our soul's food (as a very neat Dutch pastor just told me recently) and without it we're starving our soul to death.  We sure are quick to feed our body, he made a GREAT point, but how often do we make time to 'feed' our soul?  And  I've found all my endless questions and concerns (that CONSTANTLY whirl in my head) are laid to rest and are 'answered' and fed by the Lord's word and it's making me 'grow big' (like we tell children to eat up)!  We shouldn't remain 'children souls' and keep being reminded 'eat up to grow'!  Or 'eat your veggies'... ;)  Food is actually one of our first priorities, greatest 'passions' or 'joys' as a human, this is how we should be with the Living word (our spiritual food) is should be one of our greatest passions and joys and yes I'll say it should be our TOP priority! :D

Soul food is awesome! :D

It tastes delicious and I'm not just kidding here it does have a taste that your soul tastes... and its soo satisfying.  After a huge Thanksgiving or Christmas dinner we sure feel 'full'!  Don't you wish to so satisfy your withering soul?

His blessed child,
Faith Elizabeth Grubb

P.S. And the word of the Lord is like a long lovely romantic and serious and important letter from our Lover Lord and it truly is a mystery to search out his heart and soul in....  A love 'affair' I will have the pleasure of continuing for eternity! <3 p="">

Friday, June 19, 2015

Once I Dreampt a Dream

Once I dreampt a lovely dream, oh many year far past it's been, of my hugging a precious man.
Twas the one who's loves never end, twas Jesus I am for sure, as his arms they were so larger than man's.

And I oft doubt my Jesus would know, the soul which died a crucified death for me, how to best dispose my life with all my silly plans and dreams.  But why weak self would e'er I doubt?

For this man, tanned near black was his skin, though his face I could never see, is all I need,
And my view, in this dream, was as if I were looking on, beholding us there, a white cloth did clothe his waist around yet his strong and bare upon his chest I lay clothed in white... like a bride.

And oh foolish me, oft I look up and even let go, to attend some trouble on my own, but why I forsake such strong aid I know not.  What a dream it twas...

We stood still, and at peace, on flat dessert plateau, as though atop of world,
Where one could see for miles around still his face I never saw.
And thus I remained the whole dream, calm, pleased and at ease.
And thus we should remain, and ever be, as a small child in his mighty arms.

(And that's what happens when you listen to too much Irish/Celtic and remember your Lord's love and a random sweet dream you had years ago!)

Friday, June 12, 2015

Let's Do This! (Not Hear)

So in a world were pleasure and all that fills your desires is smothered in your face almost to where you no longer recognize what you do and don't like.... You get really tired.  As a people we Americans are tired.  Of everything, of trying, thinking, learning, laughing, rejoicing, dreaming, growing, building, doing, nearly being....

I am glad to say though that some of us are not so tired of these things.  We love learning, growing, laughing, rejoicing, thinking.  But what do we do it for/at.  Are we learning to best satisfy self?  Are we learning to best think of others or ourselves?   Are we growing at our ability to slander or are we growing in wisdom and understanding?   And those aren't old words, those are real things that are relevant for today!

I find in looking back only 1 year, how caught up I was (still) in me.  My dreams, wants, pleasures etc.  I don't have this all down folks still TOTALLY learning!  But now I do find a want to do the things the Lord wishes.  His wants are become mine, not all of them.  I heard a GREAT thought over the weekend concerning reading the word.  We went to a homeschool camp (Spring Mingle) over the weekend and this Pastor V came in for one day to do a workshop.   He had mentioned the verse 'Search the scriptures'...  (not sure where that is off the top of me head) but he said "What is it to search?  Does that mean just read a verse, chapter, etc. everyday?  What do you do when you search?"

The conclusion, you look for or are seeking something....!

That really inspired me and helped me!   But I bring this up as we, as a society, see to be tired of everything.  And we're told to search, or hunt if you want.

So first there's a doing involved. (let us be doers and not only hearers)

So looking back over my last few years and even weeks I've found that I've been taught a lesson, told a lesson, and I've heard it.  But now comes the action of doing it.  Fun right?  ;)  

Let's not kid ourselves we are tired of 'doing what we're told'.  We're human lazy, selfish beings out only to seek pleasure.  Concerned with SELF.  But within me, my soul within me is OH so eager to jump up and  DO its Master's bidding.  Yet my self is tired.

I can barely understand now Paul's dilemma.  Why here's an example for you just happened this past week.

Situation: Misunderstanding and thus an argument ensued with a family member.

Self: "Wow!  Did you here 'them' talk to you so? You deserve so much ore!"
Spirit: "Hey! We've been learning NOT to fear man!"
Self: "So what!  I can't let them see me 'weak'!"
Spirit: "Why? What they gonna do?"
Self: "I don't know but hurt me and that HURTS!"
Spirit: "But you're fearing man more than God!  You're 'weak' before him."
Self: "uh...."

I had to realize I've been fearing them WAY more than the Lord and that's twisted!  Cause REALLY what in the world can they do to ME (a child of the King of Kings!) that he won't know about???

(I may be repeating from last few posts)

But I've too been realizing though he gives us those family and friends to truly connect with that doesn't mean make them God's and put their opinion above Christ's!  They may love me today and hate me tomorrow too, so really why base and hang my whole life on them?

And SURPRISE they're human too, trying to figure out this 'life' thing along with billions and if Christian are trying (like you) to know how to live in a wicked filthy world but not be of it!

I know I've faltered countless times, and if I freak out at one of their mistakes that I happen to experience why not just NOT freak out?  Why not just FEAR only God and not man and get over it?  Anyone recall the word... forebear?  I'm not trying to be rude, I'm just shocked how many don't know what it means or is!   It means politely or patiently restrain an impulse to do something; refrain. That is interesting as the Ephesians letter says "With all lowliness and meekness, with long suffering, forbearing one another in love." Ephesians 4:2

So I got off there some, sorry!

Just I am learning that I don't need to fear MAN or anything they've done/will do to me.  Man will ALWAYS let us down.  But only Christ will 100% 'do it right' his way!  :)

So now I've learned and heard that lesson... now he's putting me through 'doing' classes, and its still up to me/us if we want to listen but why not?  We'd be better off just to listen and not face any future 'spanking'.... (That I don't want to find out about)!

Anyway blessings to you all,
His learning Christian girl,

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

The way I do recipes...

So recently a friend and I were talking about how we cook, how a recipe is a suggestion! :D

Well it is only that for me. :)

Around here when cooking for 8 to 10 folks regularly its sometimes useless to get a recipe book out each time.

We have as a family memorized songs.... to every detail.... Well we sorta do that in the kitchen too ;)

And for example, I don't give a recipe too well.  So when a gal asked for a chicken pot pie recipe I was like 'oh that's easy, here you just do this and that' and thus the 'recipe' I made up (from reading tons and adapting them to my way of cooking, and from the many times we've made it and with some variations included - Mel and I cook differently ;) ).    Which recipe I'd like to share with you all as I'd rather not just have it sit as a comment on some social media alone forever... I mean for the rest of... oh never mind! :P   But what I'm saying is that it took me a while to spell it out so why not share it?  
Ready? You want to make Chicken pot pie?  It's easy and takes about half to one hour prep and about another hour cooking- till golden brown!

Not really a recipe... But "Grubb Chicken Pot Pie"

Brown chopped onions in about 2 TB butter (real!) a pan, add other desired veggies in desired form (chopped, whatever), and chicken chopped and raw (NOTE the veggies must be 'raw' too). This gets the onion flavor into the meat.
Now once cooked down (clear onions, soft carrots), add some water. Let simmer while in a bowl put 1/2 cup flour (or 1 to 2 TB arrowroot) in 1 cup water. Mix till a 'dough' (arrow root will be watery, but mix till all wet).
Now pull your veggies and meat to the side, in a place of only the simmering water pour in your 'dough', stir quickly as you do so. Making a gravy and NOT letting it clump! Once all 'dough' is in and smooth and looking good, stir everything in, veggies etc. That's your filling. Salt and pepper to tastes (SALT is VERY important but surely you know that ;))!

Crust/Breading: (we have two versions):
1.(Mel's easy style) Make a favorite biscuit dough and plot 'biscuits' onto gravy in pan, cover and let cook on stove about 45 mins to an hour, till dough is cooked. (dough will be wet on outside, as the steam from top will cause the 'biscuits' to get wet.

2. (My 'from-scratch-to-look-awesome' style :P ) Make basic pie crust recipe, roll out and put in pie pans, fill and cover with second pie crust (attach, so easy with a fork or fingers!) and bake like a regular pie at like 375 to 425 for an hour. Till golden brown....

Anyway its GREAT! :D
Other variations: We do garlic and onions as the 'spices'. Veggies are basic carrots, broccoli, peas, celery, carrots, etc.
Works same way for beef too! :D Note: Melody and I have been cooking for over thirty years (collectively) ;) Anyway cooking is another one of those past times on my long list, but one of those past times that gets old if you do nothing but cook 24/7... Which doesn't happen unless you feel like baking in between every meal. :)  So you're bound to enjoy it!  Come of let's fry dem onions!

Say and since you're on the pie theme... let's make blackberry pie!

This one I did look up a recipe for, but it was soo simple!

"Blackberry Pie" (from memory, my Great Aunt Carol's 50s Better Homes and Gardens!)
2 cups fresh berries 3/4 cup sugar 2 TB arrowroot (cornstarch) 1 teaspoon salt 2 TB butter Put berries in crust. In bowl mix sugar, salt and arrowroot, pour over berries. Then cut your butter in slabs put on top (I skipped the butter as we were out and it worked too).

Crust/Breading: (we have two versions):
Make basic double pie crust recipe, roll out and put in pie pan, do the above ^, cover with second pie crust attach (I did the 'finger' trick edging. Then cut a design in the top! :) I 'drew' berries on it (pictured)! :) Bake at like 375 to 400 for an hour. Till golden brown and 'jelly'! :D

Anyway its GREAT! :D
Variations: I used a gluten free flour and coconut oil crust. I added extra arrowroot to use for 'flour' and it worked like white flour, but was a 'bland' flavor. Haven't tried almond or other GF flours yet. :)

Enjoy!  Let me know how they turn out if you make either!

His crazy cook,
Faith Elizabeth

Friday, June 5, 2015

More than a Regular Joe

Matthew 5:21-26
" Ye have heard that it was said by them of old time, Thou shalt not kill; and whosoever shall kill shall be in danger of the judgment:  But I say unto you, That whosoever is angry with his brother without a cause shall be in danger of the judgment: and whosoever shall say to his brother, Raca, shall be in danger of the council: but whosoever shall say, Thou fool, shall be in danger of hell fire.  Therefore if thou bring thy gift to the altar, and there rememberest that thy brother hath ought against thee;  Leave there thy gift before the altar, and go thy way; first be reconciled to thy brother, and then come and offer thy gift.  Agree with thine adversary quickly, whiles thou art in the way with him; lest at any time the adversary deliver thee to the judge, and the judge deliver thee to the officer, and thou be cast into prison.  Verily I say unto thee, Thou shalt by no means come out thence, till thou hast paid the uttermost farthing."

Matthew 5:37-48

My Father is a master....   He's a great artist, at crafting live oak trees with their intricate bark, to the living seed to the trunks up to several feet around!   To the muscular flair of a man's arms compared to the slenderness of a woman's.   His artistry doesn't stop there either.... he is a master artist of design and life and everything, even a soul and heart and mind and vision....   Its endless its amazing.   And his wisdom is awesome!  
You see the depth of these scriptures above are so amazing!   You know you have 'hated' people internally and you often don't think about that harming your walk as a Christian.  It seems normal and everyone's done it one time or another.  Growing up our parents taught us to say 'sorry' or ask for forgiveness.  I often wondered why this was important.  I did notice it helped your brain become 'lighter' and that 'problem' was 'solved' once forgiven.   I haven't really realized how much of a WHY person I am until now!  I've lived on since then (just being told to do it) and I had asked why but at the wrong time, so didn't get the answers I needed.  Its not bothered me, but laid dormant as a 'I'll find out whenever' thought.  One that even was forgotten completely about until today as I read my bible this morning, chapter 5 of Matthew.  The Lord says we aren't even to say 'You fool!' to our sibling!  And how often do we?  How come we still do?  Did we just simply NOT read our bible and so didn't think it would cover such an issue?   I know for me its so.  I never read that, that way.  I have read it too, but to read it (even so plainly as its written) I missed it before!   It being:  Don't hate or think sinful thoughts towards a brother (even an unsaved person) lest you are in danger of going to hell, or paying horribly for your crime, even if saved!
 You may take it a totally different way.  But to me Jesus is warning, don't continue in sin when knowing its wrong!  

We're Princes and Princesses in His eyes!
The other verses are awesome too.  He's calling us to be better than 'regular Joes' he's requiring more of us as we are his and trained to see some different things.  He's requiring us to lay down not only one mile, but two.  And not only our coat, but our scarf and shirt too!     And he tells us to love our enemies, and those that falsely accuse us, as even every Joe Smith loves those who love him... He's called us to WAY more!  Let go and forsake all, but Jesus.  And nothing will harm you ever!  Anyone could steal your things, and if your heart is only in Jesus, you wouldn't care!  If you are tortured and defiled and harmed wrongfully, you are still full of joy and are as if unharmed for you have the living God handling everything! You first (of COURSE) do all you can to prevent being hurt so, but if you can't (as our siblings in Christ in foreign countries) you just learn to live with it. 
Read Job!  Its in there ;)  That's one of the best bible books in my opinion! :D

So quit being 'A Regular Joe' you HOLY children!